I have been on a journey in weight loss for quite some time now. I have struggled with my weight for most of my life. Most of the diets have been tried at least once or sometimes twice. Exercise has been sporadic at best. However back in January of this year, I made a commitment to myself that this would be my year to get healthy and loose the weight that has been literally “weighing me down”. The reason being I found myself the heaviest I have ever been and knew that some things in my life had to change.
I want to share with you that this is not a whim to loose a few extra pounds. This journey is composed of a large amount of weight that needs to be lost. I applaud anyone who is trying to lose a small amount of weight to get healthy. I just want you to understand where I am in this journey. I hesitate to put the amount of weight I have to lose because that is not where I want my focus to be. So I would know where I am, I went to a website and put in my height and the weight I am now and it calculates and gives you a healthy range in which you should be. It even includes your frame: large, medium, or small bone structure. This healthy range is my goal and where I land in this range will be between me and God. Focusing on food and weight is one of the reasons I am where I am today. As God is breaking, molding and reshaping me into the person he specifically designed me to be, I will be sharing the lessons learned in the process. I do realize that the issue of a person’s weight is a sensitive issue. I want to speak plainly and honestly and most of all without offense. So, please in all of this I pray that what I share will help and not hurt those who are reading and participating in their own journey. That being said let me begin.
As anyone who has battled with losing weight knows it is something that you have to watch constantly. You take long looks in the mirror and the scale becomes your worst enemy. The more you diet the more you focus on food and the desire grows. It is all about what you can’t have and all the tastes and “yummies” you have grown to love call to you from the pantry. Diet foods are for the most part not as tasty and you find you eat more of these because it is less calories and you are always hungry. I have found that when I begin to add some of the good, tasty things back into my diet for variety, because frankly eating the same foods day after day is a nightmare, I found that I begin to put back on the weight I struggled to get off in the first place. I needed a new way. I needed at new vision. I needed to break the hold food had over me.
Everyone needs food to live. It is God’s way to be hungry and then be filled. He has made food available for us to grow and flourish. Look at the Garden of Eden and all the variety He gave to Adam and Eve to enjoy. Through the Bible and books on nutrition, I have been learning a great deal about who I am and the person God wants me to be on the inside and on the outside. Now I know that only the inside matters that when you are right with God on the inside, you need to be happy with the outside. 🙂 Let’s think about that for a minute, I really feel that this is a lie that Satan is trying to get us to swallow. God does want our hearts, and minds to be in tune with Him and be spiritually healthy, however I am learning that God wants our bodies to be healthy as well. God wants all of us, inside and out. God cares about every facet of us. He created me and He wants me to strive to be all I can be for him. If my body is hindering me because of what I have done to it, a change needs to be made.
I have been reading “The Weigh Down Diet” by Gwen Shamblin for about three weeks. One of the first principles she teaches is to only eat when you are hungry and stop just as soon as you begin to feel full. Wait to eat until you are really hungry and then choose something to eat. It begins by learning to recognize the the hunger/full indicators that God has so beautifully put inside every person.
This morning as I was praying, God took me to Phillippians 4:11-12. “Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content. I know both how to be abased, and I know how to abound: every where and in all things I am instructed both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need.” I never really looked at these verses before in this way. God wants me to be content in Him where ever I am at this moment. He wants to fill me and be all that I need, and He wants me to know what it is like to be hungry. He is taking me to a place where I must rely on Him fully. If I trust Him enough to save my soul and give to Him my life, I must be willing to give to God my next mouthful also.
In my own heart, I have decided to give my food, hunger and need to the Lord. I am going to wait until I am hungry only then will I eat and stop when I am full. This will be my goal for today. I will honor God with my eating by letting Him let me know when I am hungry. When I struggle today and want to eat when I am not hungry, I will take him my heart and body and cry to Him for help. God made this body. He knows it inside and out and today I will give it to Him. I know I may struggle in the future, but at this moment I choose to draw close to Him.
As God continues to teach me, I will continue to share with you every week. I will pray for each of you in your journey. Blessings.