Ok, to begin. I was tired! I was very anxious, and unsettled, yet all of these did not seem to actually convey how I really felt. It went much deeper. I was already reaching for my inner “panic button”. I was waiting and praying for an answer to a need that I had. Deep down I knew that the Lord would take care of it, and I knew He would be with me even when the deadline for the answer was on the way. Yet, Here I was doing everything but trusting. I was out of sorts and these feelings lead to frustration on my part. Why am I doing this to myself? Though I am an anxious person by nature, can I really use this as an excuse? These feelings that I have are real. I’m at an impasse. I’m tired and I need rest not only in my physical body, but also in my heart and in my soul. So I run to my Heavenly Father, confess I cannot handle this, confess my failure to trust, and ask for the rest that is only found in Him.
At the end of what we know as the Lord’s Prayer (after the Amen) in Matthew 6, Jesus continues to speak. He speaks of forgiveness, fasting, reward, and God’s care of you! Verses 25-29 read, “Therefore I say unto you, Take no thought for your life, what ye shall eat, or what ye shall drink; nor yet for your body, what ye shall put on. Is not the life more than meat, and the body than raiment? Behold the fowls of the air: for they sow not, neither do they reap, nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feedeth them. Are ye not much better than they? Which of you by taking thought can add one cubit unto his stature? And why take ye thought for raiment? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow; they toil not, neither do they spin: And yet I say unto you, That even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.” God is taking care of the most basic of your needs. In doing this, will he not also take care of any other needs you and I may have? I am learning daily that God wants me to rest when I lay down, of course, but He also wants me to rest when I am going about my days activities. God wants me to cultivate an attitude of restfulness. So you may ask, what does this look like practically speaking? Have you ever seen someone in a situation where you know everything around them was going sideways, yet they have a peaceful smile, they are moving about deliberately doing what they have to do, and they have a calm about them that is not “normal”. This is someone who is relying on God for their next breath, next step, and next moment in time. They exhibit an attitude of restfulness. My heart’s cry is to rest and trust like that!!!
Your reaction may be, “NO way can I do that?”. Sometimes I feel it too, but it is in these moments we have to look beyond our situation and ourselves, and focus on Jesus, the only true source of rest for the heart and soul. Walking with Jesus is not running ahead and getting out of breath. Walking with Jesus is when He takes a step we take one too. Step by step, moment by moment, resting in His presence is the only way to live. This is what an attitude of restfulness looks like. We can embrace this way of living, but not alone. It is a daily partnership, between the Almighty and me! My dear friend, restfulness is a prayer away. When feelings want to claim your calm, lean on the Savior and let Him support you through it all. When we seek Him first, we will find the rest we need.
“But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you. Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof.” Matthew 6:33-34