“O Lord, thou hast searched me and known me.” What a powerful beginning we see in the 139th Psalm. David writes in the following verses how deeply God truly knows him, and how he is “acquainted with all his ways.”
As I watched my son play basketball this evening, I saw some things about him that I already knew. I know about his competitive drive and his willingness to play harder than any kid I have ever seen. He has his faults like all of us do, but he has a love for sports that I admire. I saw tonight also how much he wants to help and please his teammates. When the loss occurred, he hurt. Our heavenly father knows all about us also. He know our strengths and our weakness. He knows when we need encouragement. He knows when we hurt. Just as he knew David; he knows us too.
What he knows about us can stir several emotions in us. The first is he knows and sees when I do wrong or make mistakes. Many times I think we tend to focus on this aspect of his knowing us. We do need to be aware when we sin to confess it and forsake it. (1 John 1:9) It is important to keep a short sin account. God is a God of justice and he wants us “to be holy as he is holy.” I know in my own life I am harder on myself than anyone else is. This is an area God has been helping me to overcome. If God went through all he went through so I could be forgiven, I do not have the right not to forgive myself after I ask for his forgiveness. I am learning that there are times when I need God to forgive through me. I see alot of myself in my son, so I am trying to pass on what God is teaching me.
The second aspect of this knowing is that he knows and sees when I am doing right. He knows when I am striving toward the good and right way. He knows when this is a struggle for me. In verse 16 of this chapter it reads, “Thine eyes did see me substance yet being unperfect; and in thy book all my members were written…” and in verse 17, “How perfect are thy thoughts unto me, O God! how great is the sum of them.” He knows me, yet he loves me in spite of me. In Psalm 40:17 it reads, “I am poor and needy; yet the Lord thinketh upon me…” I am so glad my Lord thinks about me and I marvel at his patience toward me. I pray I will be more like him and treat my son the way God treats me with love and patience.
By the end of this psalm, David is asking God to search him and know him even more. David has seen all God has done in knowing him and loving him and ends with a plea to cleanse and heal him and to point him in the right direction. I pray God will do this for me. Just as he wants to know me; I want to know him.
He knows me completely because he made me. He made me just as he wanted me to be. He has a purpose and a plan for me. In verse 14, David proclaims, “I will praise the Lord for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works: …” When my son was born, I fell in love with that tiny soul left in my care. As I looked at him I saw a blessing and felt such great joy. He has grown so much since that day. I find that behind the drive he shows there is sensitive soul. He loves God and I pray God will use him even now. My love for him grows every day.
I think it is time to look at myself the way God sees me: as wonderful testimony to his grace and mercy. I am one who God loves and one who he knows extensively. With the psalmist I will lift my voice and I will praise Him!